Accessing Our Inner Wisdom

I’ve always loved learning. 

I’ve loved reading books, listening to podcasts, going to workshops and trainings. 

But there became a point when I realized that by constantly consuming information from others around me, I was neglecting to access the wisdom inside of myself. 

It felt unsafe and scary to sit in stillness. To listen to my body and ask my body questions. To create time and space for what wanted to create and express from within. 

If I did this, there was fear around what would come up. What if emotions came up that were too big, too scary, too intense? What if my body/intuition wanted me to do something that I didn’t want to do? What if I took action and it wasn’t received well? What if I failed? Oh the spirals and journeys our minds can take us on!

And I realized that the constant stream of outside information became a survival strategy for me to avoid connecting to myself and avoid stepping outside of my comfort zone and taking action. 

I started creating intentional time to connect with myself each day. I started doing a few minutes of breathwork in the morning. Taking a bath at night. As time went on, I was able to tune in and see what my body wanted. A walk? To bake? To just sit outside in the sun? To ground?

And connecting to my body became a little less scary. A little more natural. 

I began to trust my body more. To develop a relationship and check in with her. 

Connecting to ourselves can feel scary and overwhelming at times, especially if we’ve had trauma and/or chronic illness. 

But the key is small doable steps. 

Coming Into Deep Presence

One of the things I love about somatic work, emotional release, breathwork, and sound healing is that it brings us into a space of deep presence.

This is a state we tend to avoid by distracting ourselves, keeping ourselves busy, numbing out. 

Which makes sense because we can’t hide from ourselves in this state of deep presence- we see and feel it all. All of the wounds. Our limiting beliefs. Our repressed emotions. Everything holding us back. All the ways we hold ourselves back. 

This can feel scary and overwhelming at times, and/but that’s normal and to be expected.

This is the work. This is the healing. 

This deep presence brings deep healing. 

Redefining “Meditation”

For so long I thought meditation meant sitting still in one position, in silence, observing my thoughts. 

Sometimes I was able to do it. Most of the time I wasn’t. 

I noticed that I felt the most relaxed, creative, and out of my head when I was doing more “active” things- like breathwork, sound healing, dancing, baking, walking, doing a jigsaw puzzle, coloring.

All of these activities gave my mind something else to focus on, so I was more easily a lot to get out of my head and drop more into my body. 

Meditation can look like:

Sports

Running 

Going to the gym

Baking

Breathwork 

Dancing 

Singing

Drawing

Creating art 

(Really anything that helps you get out of your mind and more into the body)

“All We Ever Do- Is All We Ever Knew”

(Currently singing The Head and the Heart song…)

Most of us are running on autopilot, based on our old beliefs and patterns that we took on from caregivers and those around us, especially from ages 0-7, when our brain is like a sponge absorbing everything we see and hear, and taking it on as truth. 

We go through the world, operating on these outdated programs and beliefs, and it can feel REALLY uncomfortable to change them. When these beliefs are challenged, we may get triggered, feel resistance, and go back to what we know to feel safe. Our body is highly intelligent and our subconscious will try anything to keep us in the same loops, because it’s trying to protect us and keep us safe. 

AND

These programs are keeping us stuck and limited. It can be difficult to grow, change, and expand because there is so much resistance to doing so. 

The goal isn’t to resist the resistance but rather lean into it, listen to it, work with it, and integrate it. 

Some ways I have done this are though: somatic work, inner child work and parts work, subconscious reprogramming, breathwork, and energy work. 

Knowledge Vs Embodiment

What’s the difference between knowledge and embodiment?

Knowledge is the mental learning, repeating, awareness. 

Embodiment is actually living what you learned on a daily basis. 

When I first dove into emotional healing, it was all about gaining as much knowledge as I could. I listened to all the podcasts. Read all the books.

But after time I realized that I wasn’t actually living this knowledge.

I could talk all about boundaries and the importance of setting them, but when it came to setting a boundary I would freeze and avoid.

I could talk all about the nervous system responses, but I was still having extreme experiences of nervous system dysfunction.

I could talk all about taking your power back, but I was still giving my power away on a daily basis, with even small things.

I could talk all about the importance of feeling your feelings, but I was still terrified of feeling mine on deep levels.

It wasn’t until I started doing somatic work that I realized: I had all the mental stuff down, but I was totally disconnected from my body.

And being connected to my body is how I can embody and live this knowledge.

Through body- based modalities such as somatic coaching, emotional release, and breathwork, I created more safety to be in my body, which led to feeling more connected to myself, which led to actually integrating all of the knowledge and living it.

Knowledge is power. Awareness is power. And embodiment creates even deeper levels of empowerment.