Accessing Our Inner Wisdom

I’ve always loved learning. 

I’ve loved reading books, listening to podcasts, going to workshops and trainings. 

But there became a point when I realized that by constantly consuming information from others around me, I was neglecting to access the wisdom inside of myself. 

It felt unsafe and scary to sit in stillness. To listen to my body and ask my body questions. To create time and space for what wanted to create and express from within. 

If I did this, there was fear around what would come up. What if emotions came up that were too big, too scary, too intense? What if my body/intuition wanted me to do something that I didn’t want to do? What if I took action and it wasn’t received well? What if I failed? Oh the spirals and journeys our minds can take us on!

And I realized that the constant stream of outside information became a survival strategy for me to avoid connecting to myself and avoid stepping outside of my comfort zone and taking action. 

I started creating intentional time to connect with myself each day. I started doing a few minutes of breathwork in the morning. Taking a bath at night. As time went on, I was able to tune in and see what my body wanted. A walk? To bake? To just sit outside in the sun? To ground?

And connecting to my body became a little less scary. A little more natural. 

I began to trust my body more. To develop a relationship and check in with her. 

Connecting to ourselves can feel scary and overwhelming at times, especially if we’ve had trauma and/or chronic illness. 

But the key is small doable steps. 

Sitting With Uncertainty

We live in a world of instant gratification- we can order something on Amazon and get it the same day- and instant knowing- we can google something and get the answer in seconds. We come to expect this in our life- when we need to make a decision or choose a path, we may expect to immediately know, to immediately get answers. And maybe if we don’t trust ourselves, we may seek externally for the answer, either by asking others what we should do or making a logical decision based on what we “should” do.

We don’t know how to sit in the unknown and sit with the uncertainty. We don’t know how to be in this void space of nothingness. 

Taking action- even if it’s uninspired- feels safer than non-action. 

Which makes sense- it’s scary and uncomfortable. 

And, ironically, it is often here- in the void- where our answers lie. It is when we can sit with the unknowing that we start to find clarity, and when we sit with the uncertainty that we start to find our truth.